This is a blog about what I think about. What I believe. What makes me, me. I just enjoy life for who it is and what it gives us. I hope you enjoy what I have to say :)
"Happiness pulses between every beat of my heart" -Thoreau
Well I know it is the 14th and I am now posting this. But, I am doing a new start to this year. Trying to move past crappy things that happened in the past, getting rid of so much shit in my room ( I feel like I have nothing left). Why do we need all of this material crap. I feel like it is pointless buying these useless items which we will never use just to sit in the house ( Like a room that no one can go in because it’s for when the friggen pope comes or the plastic lined sofas… what’s the point)
So buy throwing out all this useless stuff and donating clothes to salvation army, I believe this new start of the year is fantastic so far. Now only to prepare for my classes, get it shape, and find a house I will be living in next year. Happy 2011 everyone :)
That is a question I seem to ask myself quite a bit. From others you seem to get different answers. A lot of younger individuals seem to love someone because it is their first love and they feel that word is necessary. Or maybe you have been with that person for several years and you are not in love with them any longer but, you love them in a different manner and feel the need to be with them still.
Why does love seem to be so complicated? There are so many twists and turns to what love is to certain people. Well on the other hand if love was so simple then people would go to get depths in order to find love.
This is one reason I feel the need to not express the word love too often. I feel the words ‘I love you’ has truly be taken for granted. One says I love you after being with someone for a week. I am not trying to say the only way love occurs is from time but, how do you love someone before you trust them or even truly know them. Yes I have had boyfriends, flings, and been attached to people and I truly do not like it. I know my boyfriend, Colin, cares for me completely, as do I. But, the idea of being in love with him scares me. I in know way shape or form want to get attached at such a young age.
If I know he is the right man then, I should be able to wait. After all patients is a virtue. :)
Well.. I haven’t posted something particular in a long time. Been focusing on school to much and doing other things in my free time. Just mainly enjoying every ounce of life. Particulary on the weekends. My homelife is not entertaining at all.
Being a veggie is quite difficult.. well I do eat fish still. But, having a family in which no one is supporting what you are doing surely does not help in the leats bit. Oh well just got to look past it. Starting dating an amazing guy that makes me feel things I never felt in a relationship before. As if it was my first relationship all over again. It is fun, exciting, and Inever want it to end. :) Went to the Cranberry festival this weekend with my sister (Erika), her boyfriend ( Alex), and my mom. We had a great time. I even got a new insence burner. It has native American designs all over it and smoke comes out of the mouth of the idian on the bottle and outof the sides. Very original. :)
A big discussion that we have been having in my College English class has realy got to me for a week now. It cuts deep down into the core. The topic of hunger and giving to people in need all throughout the world. I indeed give my time and do charity work however, my professor made me realize why are we not giving more. People all over the world spend a third of their income on unnecessary items. I can’t lie I do it too. I spend my money on a new pair of shoes that look cute. Or an simple run to wawa to get a little treat.
So my teacher was asking us if people should be able to give most of the money that we spend on unnecessary items to a charity. A lot of people, as well as myself thought that it is a good idea and as a class we should save money to donate but, one individual decided to argue about it. Please understand that I am a person that no matter what topic it is I will listen to them and have a calm debate with them. Even reguarding sexuality, which truly annoys the shit out of me that religions and other people are so against homosexuals, it really burns my ass.
This boy stated that we should not have to donate to charities because it is not our fault that they are homeless our have lost everything. He continued to argue that his ancestors helped him and is family be where he is today. He has what he has because his ancestors actually tried to make a living and make their own family have a better life. I agree with the fact that my ancestors tried whatever possible to make a better life for their families in the future however, what I truly dissagree against is the fact that just because some other families did not make a better life for their families he would not help. In some situations people try what ever is possible to make a better life for their family but, somtimes life just doesn’t work out the way they want to. But, imagine this situation that has happened to many of people. A family owns a great cafe on the corner of town in Lousianna. It is the hotspot of town and the family is living a great and happy life. On August 29, a tragedy occurs. Hurricane Katrina hits the coast hich destroys homes, buldings, resturants, and even churches. For this family, there corner cafe as well as there home was destroyed. They have no place to live and are literally living off of nothing. How do they except to survive? The kindness of strangers is the only thing they have. Similar situations hve occured to thousands of families in Lousianna, loosing everything and depending on the help and aid of strangers. It should not matter that you know the person to make a difference, what should matter is just to help at all. What kind of person lives their life only to care about oneself. All I know is that if I were a stranger to him and he could either buy me a loaf of bread or I would die. He would walk past me as if I am a lump of dirt to him.
This class truly helped me see what kind of people live in this world. It also helped me decide that I want to start saving up money and instead of purchasing unnecessary things, I will donate more time and money to charities. If we all make a little effort we can somewhat make a difference. I say everyone, if you can try to make a difference, do what ever you can to at least donate money or even your time to help others. :)
Went to my yoga retreat with my friends Michelle and and my life has truly been changed. I stepped into a different world when I went to Vernon, New Jersey. The landscape was gorgeous. Farms are one of my favorite places to be and this was truly a farm. Huge amount of space, trees along side the Appalachian trail, undescribable sunsets! This place was a dream come true that I never wanted to leave.
Setting up our tent was very difficult, especially when it was pitch black outside. But, once it was up everything was perfect. We met the most amazing tent neighbors you could possibly meet. This place was everything you could ever wish for. There were vendors, a bonfire, music playing every hour of the day, a barn downhill to listen to music, a weeping willow tree, and a incredible hiking trail with a outstanding view of the area. I never wanted to leave.
Yoga and meditation everyday, dancing at night, workshops, wow I could stay there for weeks and I would be fully content with my life. One of the best things about Evolve was that everything was vegitarian meals which inspired me to change the way I lived. So, officially I have been a vegitarian for a week and three days. And I couldn’t be happier. After meditating and listening to inspiring healers I have come to realize the life I was living was nothing like me, I am happy with my decision and I hope to stay with it. As I came back to reality it was a whole new world. I began to see that the little problems in life should truly not have a great impact on you. I hope I live by that now. I also wanted to begin to see the pain around the world and try to help. In subtle ways like volunteering more and cleaning up our environment maybe I will help make a change. What I decided is to live life, enjoy life, and help life. :) I hope it works for me!
Packing up…Moving out…Moving in… Oh the world of going away to a college. I wish I lived in that wonderful world. The fact that almost everyone I know has moved on with there lives by going to college and leaving here like a stranded child sitting on the side of the road.
Staying at home isn’t as bad as it seems… I just wanted to go out and live my life. But, I shall keep living and enjoying every ounce of my college experience. Even if it is just going to a community college. Ha. I shall enjoy my stay here at home. Maybe next year I shall transfer and begin living my life a bit more but, as for now these are my tiny stepping stones to the glorious garden I have ahead of me.
I shall be gone for a couple of days… Going to the Evlove Yoga retreat. :)
This is taken by my wonderful cousin Jessica. She visited for a short time from Australia. She is one of my best friends and decided to do and old fashioned photo shoot of my friend and I. :)
Well this is a blog I see. These internet things are quite confusing to first grasp. I have let people “somewhat” know me over internet for a little while but, truly they do not know a thing about me. Flickr lets people see my photography and what I am passionate for. Facebook lets people see my rambling comments about parts of my life. But, I guess since this is all about me. It is a little scary…People can now see how crazy I truly am. :) Well everyone has to step out of the box at some point, so why not now. Hello world of blogging…My name is Natasha :)
